Feeling good is generally how we want to feel. We may feel uncomfortable if things aren’t in place. It comes down to perception of reality when making decisions. Some decisions are made in order to help us become more comfortable.

088This is a piece of my crochet work. It can be easy to get off a stitch on either end and after that first stitch, it keeps progressing further inward. The result is a lopsided square, a quadrilateral that feels like it needs undone and redone correctly. The person who requested this is a friend of mine and the intended use would be acceptable for this [sort of] square figure. I proceed. Reaching the end, I decided I could repair this anomaly by adding an extra row and a half.

What I found is that there is a right angle – a perfect square corner, the right corner – and when the flat edge is on the bottom, closest to you, the upper dis-configuration is softened by the exactness its counterpart.

In the end, I feel okay about it. The proportions are better but maybe it was okay how it was. The mind doesn’t mind that it was lopsided, but the repair makes it feel more full. I’ll let it be what it is.


It’s been a long time…

I’ve been trying the weed again. It’s much more exciting to grow a thinking structure with the weed than without, so my greatest hopes are to discuss and communicate everything of my experiences to you in the most delicate of ways.

I was a regular smoker for many years on and off through and after high school, however I feel much different than I ever have.

I’ve never felt so impacted by smoking the marijuana. It is coming clear to me that my way of life is different now, with or without marijuana. Neither bad nor good; some worse[s] and some best[s] are more extreme, specific and sometimes elaborate than than they used to be. I feel myself looking for something familiar in order to see some sense of comfort but everything feels foreign. I have to make peace with this discomfort.

I find that a lot of people are still trying to make sense of what peace is. The peace sign has been overworked. We think of bright colors and children (as your average american) instead of how we intend of pursue it. If all you have in front of you is right now, then that’s we have what we have to work with.

We have now. We have the choice to leave our old thinking patterns in the trash can. We can do that.


Hidradenitis suppurativa Healing Deodorant

There are a handful of personal care products that I make, mostly for myself; however, this is one for the books.

I have suffered with hidradenitis from my youth into the present. While there are some solutions to help alleviate the pain, the issue is generally ongoing and can last throughout a lifetime.

I went to the doctor, took antibiotics (minocyclene) for quite some time while also having monthly injections into the sores themselves. This did help some, but it was nearly impossible for each instance to be treated, as they showed up quite frequently in my youth. In adulthood, I still have problems with them but no longer take any medication or the injections, as the outbreaks have tamed down over time. There is hope!

I have recently started using my own natural deodorant. Over the years, I have had a battle with finding the right deodorant. Some felt uncomfortable, some made me break out, some absorbed too far into my arm pit’s pores causing an added potential for future clogged sweat glands (which is the cause of hidradenitis). In response, and with some experimentation, I made my own deodorant featuring zinc oxide. This is a huge win for hidradenitis. We want to wear deodorant that is good for our skin while stabilizing odor. We’re wearing it anyway, we might as well wear something day-to-day that is of multi-functionality.

My deodorants are $4 plus shipping (if you are interested).

This recipe is simply too good to keep for myself. If you are a DIYer, and would like the recipe I would be more than happy to post it for you.


Why buy handmade jewelry (handmade goods)?

I don’t allow many things to cross now days.. but when i do it’s specific. In this case, it is very light and gratifying.

How do you feel about what you are buying? How do you feel shopping for eggplant when you barely eat vegetables. It can be hard to interpret what some are expressing. It’s also smart to consider that you have to have patience to learn the craft. It costs money and specific planning, then we have to sell it. It’s worth it if you see the value.

It starts by carefully choosing your selection. Just try it. It doesn’t hurt to browse a handmade artist’s booth at the local farmer’s market regardless of your interest in purchasing. This is part of the experience of life; they want you to see what they have been doing. Artists spend 1000s of hours creating special (not to mention intricate) works of art.

It’s also important to realize that some face life’s challenges through their art and some earn a living by selling their art.

Have a heart and mind connection while purchasing handmade jewelry. Let it be a special place in your life.

Detox Week

Binge eating is an out of control behavior. Binge eating is addiction. You gotta get that fix… ‘Cept…. The majority don’t feel better after they’ve annihilated and filled their stomach to capacity, in fact, there really is little to gain by being fat and eating too much. Everything is negative other than  the pleasure of flavor, and many times we may not even fully enjoy or taste the food; we are merely stuffing our faces.

Bring yourself to feel better. Irrelevance to my past of uncontrollable hunger through fighting and fighting food cravings, there eventually is a slowing point and now a form of self-control.

Take out one week for yourself and fix it. Fix it right. Detox. All these flashy and sometimes expense weight lost products are mostly garbage. You can find some type of good is most anything, but be cautious. I made my detox week simple; here’s how:

Rule Number One: Drink only water! Check online for a water intake calculator that is based upon your weight. I weight 240 lbs and I am supposed to drink around 160 oz of water which is 5 of my large 32 oz. water bottles. Buy a special water bottle that you love. …or any ole water bottle will do. You can always decorate it with nail polish or whathaveyou. Remember, you’ll be carrying this with you everywhere you go. 

Day Number 1: Only eat vegetables. Have you ever had a terrible day at work that seems to drag on FOR-EVER? Yep… Suck it up, don’t eat that butter cup. You’ll make it.

Rule Number Two: Never eat anything until you drink a full 8 oz of water. Just chug it down; it won’t take long. Not only does this help with digestion, but it also puts a barrier between you and your food. Allowing that pause makes your food even more enjoyable.

Days 2-3: Keep a high intake of green vegetables (or any vegetables, really). Add a sweet potato to your meal if you like or some fat-free cottage cheese ( I find that it doesn’t taste much different than the full fat type, especially if you buy name brand.)

Rule Number Three: If you are dying for sweets and addicted to carbs, adding fruit is acceptable, just don’t go overboard. Wait until AT LEAST day 4 (if at all possible.)

Days 4-7: Add a 3-4 oz portion of lean meat to each meal if you wish. (Portion control is key here.) Eat all the green veg to your heart’s content, add a root vegetable if you like (potato,carrots,parsnips) – this is great to turn to in place of rice, bread or pasta, just be sure to limit it.

P.S. You will lose weight by doing this. The part you won’t understand until you get there are the ways in which you will start feeling better.Remember: this only has to last for one week. However, you’ll want to keep going after you make it through this.

Before you know it, you’ve made it through the week and congratulations to you!

Most importantly… keep it simple. You’re trying something new.