I feel terrible

I came here to talk about my experience. I don’t have a good topic for today other than I hate to fail. Who doesn’t?

I can’t stop myself from eating. It’s an addiction. Anyone who doesn’t think it is, hasn’t been addicted to eating. I want to just stop. It seems like I should be able to “just stop” but it isn’t working that way. Part of my problem is that I spend too much time at home. I get cooped up in here wandering in thought and feel as if I want to eat.

For a long time, I have fought mental illness. I have a traumatic brain injury amongst some other choice jargon. Because of my struggle, I gave into my eating habits and boy are they hard to reverse. I let myself eat whatever I wanted. I ate to be happy. I ate when I was stressed. I ate just to eat. I’m guilty as an over eater hands down.

But, when I went to reverse this kindling of my life, I’m finding it tears into my happiness. I even feel a little depressed about not being able to indulge in my favorite foods. I keep pushing the thoughts in my head to remember that the changes I am making is to embark a change: weight loss. I want to be at a healthy weight more than anything else. That should be enough to quit eating bad food!!

The other obstacle I face is that I live right next door to a grocery store. Seems nice, eh? Not after you’ve slaved your mind to the store every becking call of your stomach.

All and all, I need some help here. How can I recoupe my mind to eat when I need to not just any time?

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Hidradenitis suppurativa Healing Deodorant

There are a handful of personal care products that I make, mostly for myself; however, this is one for the books.

I have suffered with hidradenitis from my youth into the present. While there are some solutions to help alleviate the pain, the issue is generally ongoing and can last throughout a lifetime.

I went to the doctor, took antibiotics (minocyclene) for quite some time while also having monthly injections into the sores themselves. This did help some, but it was nearly impossible for each instance to be treated, as they showed up quite frequently in my youth. In adulthood, I still have problems with them but no longer take any medication or the injections, as the outbreaks have tamed down over time. There is hope!

I have recently started using my own natural deodorant. Over the years, I have had a battle with finding the right deodorant. Some felt uncomfortable, some made me break out, some absorbed too far into my arm pit’s pores causing an added potential for future clogged sweat glands (which is the cause of hidradenitis). In response, and with some experimentation, I made my own deodorant featuring zinc oxide. This is a huge win for hidradenitis. We want to wear deodorant that is good for our skin while stabilizing odor. We’re wearing it anyway, we might as well wear something day-to-day that is of multi-functionality.

My deodorants are $4 plus shipping (if you are interested). facebook.com/UniQCreate

This recipe is simply too good to keep for myself. If you are a DIYer, and would like the recipe I would be more than happy to post it for you.

 

Weight Loss Journey Mind Preparation

We start our need for weight loss in a sluggish half-assed NEED. We aren’t fully functioning in the fact that we aren’t recognizing our emergency need to start this journey but we constantly re-frame our state of mind to justify putting it off for another day. Please take a little more time off, if you like; watching this video will give you some ideas for getting started. Help yourself by setting the tone of your intentions to lose weight. Please refer to the video below to help yourself shape the actions that you will implement in the future.

Get started early: DRINK LOTS OF WATER! Drink it constantly and always drink water before you eat: this can help with digestion. Drinking a constant flow of water helps us renew and replenish because it ensures a constant flow of new energy through the body.

Detox Week

Binge eating is an out of control behavior. Binge eating is addiction. You gotta get that fix… ‘Cept…. The majority don’t feel better after they’ve annihilated and filled their stomach to capacity, in fact, there really is little to gain by being fat and eating too much. Everything is negative other than  the pleasure of flavor, and many times we may not even fully enjoy or taste the food; we are merely stuffing our faces.

Bring yourself to feel better. Irrelevance to my past of uncontrollable hunger through fighting and fighting food cravings, there eventually is a slowing point and now a form of self-control.

Take out one week for yourself and fix it. Fix it right. Detox. All these flashy and sometimes expense weight lost products are mostly garbage. You can find some type of good is most anything, but be cautious. I made my detox week simple; here’s how:

Rule Number One: Drink only water! Check online for a water intake calculator that is based upon your weight. I weight 240 lbs and I am supposed to drink around 160 oz of water which is 5 of my large 32 oz. water bottles. Buy a special water bottle that you love. …or any ole water bottle will do. You can always decorate it with nail polish or whathaveyou. Remember, you’ll be carrying this with you everywhere you go. 

Day Number 1: Only eat vegetables. Have you ever had a terrible day at work that seems to drag on FOR-EVER? Yep… Suck it up, don’t eat that butter cup. You’ll make it.

Rule Number Two: Never eat anything until you drink a full 8 oz of water. Just chug it down; it won’t take long. Not only does this help with digestion, but it also puts a barrier between you and your food. Allowing that pause makes your food even more enjoyable.

Days 2-3: Keep a high intake of green vegetables (or any vegetables, really). Add a sweet potato to your meal if you like or some fat-free cottage cheese ( I find that it doesn’t taste much different than the full fat type, especially if you buy name brand.)

Rule Number Three: If you are dying for sweets and addicted to carbs, adding fruit is acceptable, just don’t go overboard. Wait until AT LEAST day 4 (if at all possible.)

Days 4-7: Add a 3-4 oz portion of lean meat to each meal if you wish. (Portion control is key here.) Eat all the green veg to your heart’s content, add a root vegetable if you like (potato,carrots,parsnips) – this is great to turn to in place of rice, bread or pasta, just be sure to limit it.

P.S. You will lose weight by doing this. The part you won’t understand until you get there are the ways in which you will start feeling better.Remember: this only has to last for one week. However, you’ll want to keep going after you make it through this.

Before you know it, you’ve made it through the week and congratulations to you!

Most importantly… keep it simple. You’re trying something new.

I have new hopes…

Have you ever felt as if your electronics were working against you? I HAVE! Weight Watchers is mostly over except collecting a series of recipes for my personal use. I got sick of fighting the weight watcher’s app… logging me out multiple times per day, difficult to navigate; it wasn’t worth a fight. I asked for a refund due to app dysfunction; it wasn’t just me, this was discussed during my local weight watcher meeting.. nothing, no response. Plus i was prematurely charged for an extra month of which i had to request a refund.

On the contrary, I have lost a bit of weight. Seems that time and study have been the only things contributing to my change in eating habits. Also, I got into a drunken, screaming argument with a friend (relative by marriage). A ride home from a cop and waking up the next day, I had a head change.

I rarely drink… probably because sober me keeps my mouth shut. I am generally a friendly, helpful person, even while drinking. I barely ever leave home! There’s no need to excrement that type of energy ever but it had been a long time coming. I won’t be drinking much anymore. Sometimes a heavy event can change your whole mindset. This is proof. Maybe we do need a outburst every once in awhile. I feel I can barely eat after that occurrence.

Shouldn’t have happened; glad it happened in the way it did. Nonetheless, I haven’t been craving sweets like I used to. I am going to take full advantage of this opportunity to hold this mindset and FINALLY lose the weight.

Weight: 240-ish
Goal #1: 200 lbs

 

Lavash

Joseph’s Lavash wraps are a lifesaver. I’ve been eating them for quite some time now, but as I transition, it puts a huge smile on healthy living.

From the deep roots of Armenian culture, I feel honored to have found this production and packaging on my grocer’s shelf. Even though it was brought to me far from its origination – not to mention inauthenticity, name brand and factory processing – it adds a depth to my healthful plate of mind.

High in protein and fiber, these monsters are 10″ x 14″ – Helluva wrap! Enjoy.