Perception

Feeling good is generally how we want to feel. We may feel uncomfortable if things aren’t in place. It comes down to perception of reality when making decisions. Some decisions are made in order to help us become more comfortable.

088This is a piece of my crochet work. It can be easy to get off a stitch on either end and after that first stitch, it keeps progressing further inward. The result is a lopsided square, a quadrilateral that feels like it needs undone and redone correctly. The person who requested this is a friend of mine and the intended use would be acceptable for this [sort of] square figure. I proceed. Reaching the end, I decided I could repair this anomaly by adding an extra row and a half.

What I found is that there is a right angle – a perfect square corner, the right corner – and when the flat edge is on the bottom, closest to you, the upper dis-configuration is softened by the exactness its counterpart.

In the end, I feel okay about it. The proportions are better but maybe it was okay how it was. The mind doesn’t mind that it was lopsided, but the repair makes it feel more full. I’ll let it be what it is.

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It’s been a long time…

I’ve been trying the weed again. It’s much more exciting to grow a thinking structure with the weed than without, so my greatest hopes are to discuss and communicate everything of my experiences to you in the most delicate of ways.

I was a regular smoker for many years on and off through and after high school, however I feel much different than I ever have.

I’ve never felt so impacted by smoking the marijuana. It is coming clear to me that my way of life is different now, with or without marijuana. Neither bad nor good; some worse[s] and some best[s] are more extreme, specific and sometimes elaborate than than they used to be.┬áI feel myself looking for something familiar in order to see some sense of comfort but everything feels foreign. I have to make peace with this discomfort.

I find that a lot of people are still trying to make sense of what peace is. The peace sign has been overworked. We think of bright colors and children (as your average american) instead of how we intend of pursue it. If all you have in front of you is right now, then that’s we have what we have to work with.

We have now. We have the choice to leave our old thinking patterns in the trash can. We can do that.